this was during the sball camp with annabel

look at that girls hair. so freaking long!!!

there was another day where we saw this guy in SG. he wants to go to guiness records for being deaf and mute to travel arnd the world on his bike, which is SO FREAKING COOL!!! he put his helmet on the floor for ppl to toss money in.




this is my dad

my gay brother.

oh you see the last pic, there was a guy at the side, extreme >>>? HE IS SO CUTE I SWEAR TO GOD!!! it looks weird coz hes spinning a file or smth with one finger and his eyes are half blinking making it look small and hes standing quite behind in the background making him look short but hes really DAMN CUTE LA!!! and super tall say... idk 4 inches taller than me? their group consisting of angmohs dumped 20bucks in the helmet aft taking a pic with the deaf dude. rich.

orchard road's christmas decos are damn nice this year. blur pic but yeah whatever.



this is juz plain weird but training was kinda eventful today. most of us reached sch at 8.10am and stoned at the hole talking abt random shit. annabel went

what the shit manzxzxzxzxzxz

and so now everyone is suaning her for it. its HILARIOUS!! and we sluggishly carried out all the equip and ran 6 rounds. it was okay i guess... then coach came, and we throw bases, did fence batting as well as machine bunting, in 2 groups. i was the odd one out with no partner coz there were 9 ppl there so si min helped me toss ball when i bat =D thanks!!

my throw is still sucking like shit and while some of us were stoning, coach decided to make betts, si yin, si min field outfield balls while he asked me to stand beside catch balls. i thought it was juz catch toss to him... apparently he had smth else in mind

he wanted to talk to me abt stuff. he wanted to put me as 1st base!! i mean of coz im kinda happy but... i feel guilty. esp when he said

i think youre better than annabel, youre much taller

i was thinking, then if annabel was taller then she would be better too! but its more than that. he asked if i wanted to but... ARGH im gonna do this whole thing in simple form. keep in mind that this whole convo was going on while i was trying my best to focus on both catching balls as well as talking. not as easy as you think. and this is what i rmb from my memory, as much as possible.

coach: you wanna play 1st base?

me: i think annabel is better at it

coach: you wanna be coach arh? (coz i judged instead of listening to his own judgement)

me: no...

coach: i think you can be better at it since youre taller

me: idk...

coach: then play la! if not which position you wanna play at?

me: shortstop or catcher

coach: you think you have greater chance to get those position? must fight with twins and bettina. i think you got more chance to fight with annabel.

me: i guess...

coach: what you always think abt when you fielding?

me: alot of things

coach: you wanna talk abt it?

me: *concentrates on catching a ball*

coach: you juz have to get rid of your kan chong-ness. you realise you always very kan chong? catch the ball first then relax and throw. your throw very fast can make it even if you slowly. *gives a demo*

me: okay...

coach: i think of kicking betts she always dun come for trng its unfair to the rest. if is nicole even if she dun come for trng i will still put her coz the team needs her no choice one. so why melanie always dun come trng?

me: she has other commitments

coach: like?

me: volleyball?

coach: no wonder she so powerful. i think put her as outfield. *goes on where to put ppl to play*

i am now offically freaked out... he talked to me like a friend instead of always yelling:

CAN YOU STOP PANIKING?!?!??!?!!?!!?!!?!?

then he goes on to give me a 5 mins fielding on stop being so kan chong. thank god he finally realises that scolding/yelling/shouting at me doesnt make me any better it juz makes me worse. i realised aft all this that its not that i didnt try hard enuf, i was trying too hard. i confided in si jia when we were refilling bottles abt this whole thing and i did apologise to annabel and stuff. I FEEL SO GUILTY DAMNIT!!! but i really wanna play I DUNNO WHAT THE FUCK!!!

i still cant forget abt that ''do you wanna talk abt it?'' part. i mean theres stuff... but... its kinda nice that someone actually noticed for some reason.

so aft trng me and betts went to wee lin house. i returned twilight and borrowed full moon and we play like shit la!! this stupid video on the sisters fighting. ITS SO FUNNY!! wee lin sis was using a scarf while shes using a really soft belt. but belts hurt. and betts was hugging me from behind and i used my butt to idk... BUTT HER?! its funny yeah so funny.... i was laughing so hard my voice broke!



oh and we made cookies too!! double choc chip! but it turned out like muffins though... not that cookish at all... uncooked?